general conference

Mom, Dad, Mckenon, and Melissa came up on Sunday to watch conference with us. It was so great to have a full house. I love when everyone comes up, and I love hearing the messages Heavenly Father has for us. I didn't get to focus as much as I used to when I didn't have little kids running around, but I heard enough to feel strengthened in my testimony of a Savior who loves me, of the truthfulness of his church, and of his love for me and my family. And it was enough.

I especially loved President Eyring's words:

Your copy of the Book of Mormon may be hidden from your view by cares and attention to all you have accumulated in your journey. I plead with you to drink deeply and often from its pages. It has in it the fulness of the gospel of Jesus Christ, which is the only way home to God. . . . I leave you my sure witness that God lives and will answer your prayers.

I'm working harder to drink from the pages of the scriptures. We've been reading the scriptures together as a family every night, and I know it's helping us to be more loving and patient with each other. Now I need to focus on studying them myself, as well.

And from Elder Hales' words:

Waiting upon the Lord gives us a priceless opportunity to discover that there are many who wait upon us. Our children wait upon us to show patience, love, and understanding toward them. Our parents wait upon us to show gratitude and compassion. Our brothers and sisters wait upon us to be tolerant, merciful, and forgiving. Our spouses wait upon us to love them as the Savior has loved each one of us. . . .

Every one of us is more beloved to the Lord than we can possibly understand or imagine. Let us therefore be kinder to one another and kinder toward ourselves. Let us remember that as we wait upon the Lord, we are becoming “saint[s] through [His] atonement, … submissive, meek, humble, patient, full of love, willing to submit to all things which the Lord seeth fit to inflict upon [us], even as a child doth submit to his father.” . . .

. . . I express gratitude that “in my Gethsemane”⁴³ and yours, we are not alone. He that watches over us “shall neither slumber nor sleep.”⁴⁴ His angels here and beyond the veil are “round about [us], to bear [us] up.”⁴⁵ I bear my special witness that our Savior’s promise is true, for he says, “They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.”⁴⁶

I have felt the angels round about, bearing me up through my trials and weaknesses. I'm trying my best to wait upon the Lord. I'm trying my best to be who I should be, and even if I don't feel it's good enough, I know He loves me. I know it. I hope I can help my girls know it, too.